a contextual eutopia.........

happiness....a state of mind...everybody wud love to be in....

u never know how to get there,
all the material things in the world...take u there for a moment...

in ascension

when your there...u never know how to stay there....

just me and my solitude....

emotions just another state of mind as hard to define...

eclectic as it may be....happiness is something everybody wishes to step into...even for a moment ...if it may be....

we all...in our lifetime...tend to d othings to take us there...

some smoke weed..to escape the reality,,,,

some pick up hobbies...to escape into the deeper realms of thier minds....

love is a double edged knife...

if its towards you..then probably..better luck next time....

if not..then its too good to be true....

skidding closer to the end....the mind only seeks to answer what escapes us the most....

me,you,and just about everybody seek the unreachable....

some have it...but they never acknowledge it....

and the others really wanna have it...

happiness......


living in denial might probably get you there.....

some choose the alcohol or the marijuana to take you there.....from it or towards it....

life moves on....taking you from and to this state of existence.....

ultimately you only have to decide where you find this state of existence...

some find it in thier music....some in the parallel state of mind..for those who do...are labellled off as escapists....others blaming the ones who did find it....

i wish you were here.....

for me...my solitude is the factor that makes up the most of it...

spiked with solace...i revel in my minds creativity....away from others....loneliness..a very negetive word...for this lovely eutopia of sorts...

imaginative minds shall always work in this sphere....

creativity roams total in this sphere....

happiness.....

why cant we just get it and be happy..?

i wanna know the pain of fellowship no more.....

i feel nothing but a lack of space...


compression of my space made complete....

love devoid of its meanings is just another hypocrisy...

cheaply venal....

stupidly verbose...

taste the bitter fuits of denial...

greeted with empty eyes upon a fake smile....

emptiness is what fills the cup...

absorb yourself...you better alone...

seek then truth and it shall set you free......

an abyss...............

the most bueatiful and the burlesque.....the eclectic and the estranged....the strange and the strangled.....the star studded and the stunned....the power and the not......wasting the food and not having any.......the truth or the lie ??? the bullet or the knife ?>?? your drop of blood or mine //? ? happiness or suppression to exist /// taking no for an answer //? natural death or suicide ? ? begging or ceasing to exist ?? just plain existence or extraordinary /??? giving in or giving up ??

simply living or dying /.?? some questions which have to find their answers.....